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I am completely alone. Everyone I know has forsaken me in life. I read about the blessings but it seems im cursed. All my life whatever I have done has never been good enough for others and now I am starting to feel like its not good enough for YHVH. I read His Word, have given up everything to follow Him, I am learning the Torah and while I know I make mistakes it feels like Im constantly punished for something before I even know where I went wrong. The goal posts keep moving like there is always something more I have to do to be accepted by Him and I’m completely exhausted and broken. I’m not looking for shangra-la – I just want to know for sure that He loves me. In short I feel unloved by the entire world and I’m almost at the end. I feel like I don’t fit in – even in with Torah keepers and I don’t understand what is happening. I guess if anyone feels moved to pray that I can hear the true Elohim’s voice without tricks, for Him to tell me that He loves me and that He blesses me with healing of my mind, body and soul. Because I do not understand life anymore.